I wish that there were a pause button for life. I feel that I have wasted a few good years of my children's early childhood when I could have been thinking through the way that I really wanted to parent. What was I doing while nursing Hannah with no other babies at home? Why wasn't I reading the blogs that I read now, being mentored with wonderful words from the Word, praying through a vision of what I want our family to look like?
My mind is filled with all of the household skills that I have never learned (but want to so badly!) and homeschooling ideas and celebrations to have and coupons to clip. I know that it will just take day after day of putting them into practice and then I won't have to think in order to do them, but I wish that there was a grand "pause" button that I could put on my life so that everyone will stay the same age, everything will stay just as it is, and I can learn all the things I want to learn. It seems that in the crazy of my everyday I just barely get done the necessities and can't seem to find to add life to our life.
I suppose that my American instant mentality causes great complications in all of this. I want to read something, know how to implement it into my life instanteously and continue life--only better. I hope that somehow I can add in the fun and the celebration and the new skills little by little. And the good news is that I have tax season of 2011 to work on it all :) I don't know what I'm going to do with myself in January, February, and March!!
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
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Well, you've hit the same "crisis" moment that I went through at that stage. :-) It's just a part of life. You can't learn it all, you can't implement it all, you just have to learn to enjoy the moment and learn as you go. Don't look back with regret, press forward in the future, but not too far in the future.
Pause button for life...I second that for so many different reasons.
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