Healing

I was in the habit of blogging fairly regularly until about 3 years ago. And then my world completely fell apart. And I fell apart, too. I found myself logging into my blog site and not having a single good thing to say. As happens so often with my children, I had lost my "happy heart." As a result, I gave up on blogging to fight the war that was in my heart and in my head. I fought and fought, but without a community around me to help (note--if having a major emotionl crisis, try not to MOVE in the middle of it!), I finally gave up the fight. Sometimes it is easier to be depressed than to fight for one more day. Or hour. Or minute. I didn't want to be there. I knew that I should have joy in the Lord and in his Sovereignty. I knew that I should trust Him, trust His promises, trust His word. I knew that I was not bringing Glory to the Savior. But how in the WORLD was I to live honestly about what was going on in my world and at the same time not live in an emotional trash heap?

I'm not sure I have the answers to all of that yet. I can say, PRAISE THE LORD, that my happy heart is returning. Three years and seven months after my life was shattered, I am finding peace. And maybe, somehow, when I log onto my blog site, I may have something to say that will be a blessing to any reader who comes across the site. (And I'm sure my family would appreciate some stories and pictures!!) Now, to find the time to do it...